I wrote this before I got back into everything, before I skipped school, before I stole things, before I lied, before I cheated, before I stopped caring.





So much went down this year.  Through all the trouble I got in, and all the shit I started with people, and school, and just all the shit in general, I'm really happy with the way this years ending for me. 

As everyone knows I got expelled 2 weeks before the end of 8th grade.  I never thought school was important untill I wasnt allowed to attend.  I skipped and I always wanted to be home.  During those 2 weeks, there was nothing I wanted to do more than go to school.  Before I would've never thought I'd be the one getting kicked out of school.  I got away with everything, no one ever really got on me even though I was always in trouble.  I did everything there is to do, thats not allowed at Oslo Middle School.  Everything.  I never really got caught, and really things always catch up with you no matter what.  You can only get away with things for so long.  I'm doing so well in school right now.  So everyone knows, I will never attend Vero.  Ever.  I am not allowed, I am not allowed to go to Alternative, and even if I do go to Alternative when I get out I'm not going to Vero.  As much as I wanna be there I'm not gonna get anything done there, and I know as well as you do I'd get in trouble there.  Its like, people want me there to get in trouble.  And I'm not down with that.  I'm doing so well.  I have the best grades I've had since 4th grade this year.  I'm so happy with school right now.

I think I'll clear some things up about this whole drug garbage too.  I'm not sure who said I did coke and stuff, but I dont, and I never did.  And if I did I sure as hell didnt do it at school.  When I was in the hearing to see if I was going to be expelled or not, they read a statement where someone said I did drugs before my orchestra class everyday.  I get the biggest kick out of it, but really its not cool.  It causes me problems that I dont need. 
As of right now, I do not do drugs.  What so ever.  Nor do I drink, or smoke.  Not that its any of anyones buisness besides mine.  All of it really messed me up last year, and I know that if I had stayed out of the whole thing, I'd have such an easier life.  Not that things are hard for me right now, cause their so perfect.  But I wouldnt of had such a hard time getting my life to where it is now.

I've lost a lot of "friends" this year.  But I'm fine without them.  The ones that have stuck around I'm so grateful for.  The ones that've helped me through everything this year, I'd do anything for.  And you know who you are.  I really couldnt of gotten through the expoltion and getting kicked out of camp and being grounded all Summer and everything without them. 
I've made a lot of new friends this year too.  I'm sure I'll get closer with some of them, and some of them wont be around in a few weeks.  But its all good, everything happens for a reason.  If I'm not friends with someone, theres a reason.

If I could change one thing about this year, it'd be what I put everyone that cared about me through.  I know that the bad things I did this year didnt only have an effect of me, but everyone that knew me.  Everyone I have a relationship with.  I'll never really forgive myself for what I did to my parents.  They've helped me out of everything I've ever gotten myself into and I totally did them wrong.  I know I was in the wrong a lot this year.  My parents I know never thought I'd get expelled, or do half the things they found out I did.  I never thought I'd do the things I did either.  And my friends, I hope you can learn from me?

So, my "relationship status" kinda remained the same this year.  I had a few "relationships" if thats what you'd call it.  None of them worked out for a reason.  I spent most of my year dwelling on the same person.  Now that I think about it, it was pretty sick.  I feel bad too.  I dont know why, maybe cause I wasted so much of my time on it or something.  But I just do.  Haha.  Right now I'm just kind of hovering.  And seeing whats up with everyone.  I'm talking to a couple people, but nothing really serious.  I'm only 14.  And datings lame.  Duh.

2007, is almost over.  It's crazy thinking everything that happened to me this year was just all in one year.  Its like, unthinkably crazy.  I'm not gonna say that I wish I had done things different, because I'm so happy right now.  I cant even explain how perfect things are.  I'm so happy. 

Thanks to everyone that has had anything to do with anything having to do with me this year.  Everyones helped make me into who I am and has changed my future in some way. 

-Kriz.

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I had some really good friends this year too.

Update Jan. 18th.

Brandon Gordon Owens. 
Yep, that Brandon.  The one that no one ever thought I'd be able to be friends with.  I'm suprised I'm friends with him to be quite honest.  I never thought I'd be able to be just his friend.  But just being his friend is better than anything else.  Hes not only my friend but like my brother.  I fight with him like every single day, about something.  Whether its some girl thats commenting him like a fuck bitch, or something hes doing or something he did 3 weeks ago.  I can never stay mad at him.  Hes like, my best friend.  No one else will ever take his place.  No chick I'm down with can come between us, and I'll never let a dude push us apart.  Kay so his girlfriends.  Yeah, well.  I'll never be okay with any of his bitches.  Maybe its cause I liked him so long, or maybe cause I'm scared someones gonna take my place.  But either way, I'll just never like any of them.  I know no one will ever take my place, but its still always in the back of my mind.  I'll probably be mad at him tomorrow, and I'll probably come to erase this like I have twice since I wrote it first.  But no matter what happens or how long we dont talk or how little I see him, I'll always have love for him.  And he'll always be my best friend.  No matter who I claim as my best friend.  He'll always be my best friend.  My buddy, my wegro, my B, my B-Rad, muh bessboii.  Thass reall.  <3

Its sad when people you know, become people you knew.  And when you can walk right past someone that at one part of your life, was a big part of your life.  And how you used to be able to talk to them for hours about all the little nothings in life.  And now you can barely look at them. <3

Robert Dillon.  My Rob.D.
I didnt realize how much I liked having you in my life untill you moved.  And I didnt realize how good of a friend you were untill you moved.  The last 2 weeks you were here I saw how much I really cared about you.  Your party made me realize how much I'd miss you.  I didnt think I'd miss you as much as I do.  I never thought we'd be best friends.  I didnt think we'd even be friends really.  When I got in trouble at school you were the one along with Brandon that had my back completly.  Even when I thought you were selling out, you werent.  You always told me you'd never talk about me or lie on me or do anything a friend wouldnt do.  You were always such a good friend.  And even though you dont live here we'll stay friends, I know we will.  I dont like how you are right now, but you as a person, you're the same.  Your attitude and your outlooks and morals and personality.  I wish you were my little black boy still, but I can deal.  Haha, I love you Robert. 
Best friend ferlyfe.  <333
'< youwin'

I KNOW SOME NIGGAHS THAT'LL MURK YAH FOR A POUND A PURPPY.  YOU STUPID HOES, JUSS BE LUCKY THAT YAH GERL AINT HURTIN.  I GET THAT MONEY IN BAGS, AND I GOT MY SWAGA WORKIN.  IM POPPIN SOMETHING I CANT PRONOUNCE WHILE DEEZ BOYZ IZ FLIRTIN.  WHAT IS YOU HOLLAHN BEEEETCH.  IM ON SOME CRIPPY SHITT.  HE WANNA MAKE ME DINNER, I TELL EM MAKE ME RICH.  YOU MESSIN WIT A WINNER, BUT I COME FROM THA INNER.  OH GERL BET I COULD TAKE THAT SHAKE AND TURN IT , INTO GLITTER.  I LEAVE THA WERK WIT EM, YAH HES MAI BABYSITTER.  AND IF I FIND OUT HE CREEPIN, TRUST ME YA'LL IMA KILL EM.  IM JUST A PAPER GERL. SO WHERE THA MAIL AT.  WE HUSTLE, GRIND ALL DAY.  AND NOW WE STACK THEM STACKS.  HE WANNA RIDE ON THIS, I TELL EM PUT IT BACK.  MY WERK IS IN MY CELLY, THASS WHERE MONEY TRANSACTS.  AND DO I LOVE EM, NAHH I JUSS LOVE HIS PAYCHECK.  BLIND DEAF OR CRAZY, ITS MONEY OVER BITCHES.  AND WE AINT WORRYIN BOUT THEM HOES, GET THAT MONEY BABY, YOU GET THEM C'Z OR THAT BLOW, GET THAT MONEY BABY.  IF YOU AINT TALKIN BOUT THAT DOUGH DAMN BOI WHATCHU TALKIN.
-L.BEEZY.

NOW WE THICKA DEN SOME SNIKKAZ AND WE GOT IT GOIN ON.  LOOK SO GOOD WIT OUR NEW J'Z ON.  THEY LIKE BABYGIRL LET ME ROCK YO WORLD, THEY LIKE THA WAY WE MOVE WANNA SEE OUR BODYZ TWURL.  NOW WE COULD SNAP WE COULD POP WE COULD DROP IT.  WE MILLION DOLLA CHICKZ SO FLY CANT STOP IT.  SELLIN FA THA PROFIT, THEM CHARTZ WE ON TOP IT.  FUCK ON A BED WAY TOO GOOD FA THA CARPET.  FUCK B.K. YOU CANT HAVE IT YOUR WAY.  WE ROLL WITH YOU BUT YOU GOTTA PAY.  OR WE COULD JUST TAKE A LIL RIDE GET DUMB IN THA BAY.  AND WE COULD A TOWN STOMP IN GET CRUIN IN THA A.  WE FLY, WE RIGHT, WE EVERYTHING YA NEED IN YA LIFEE, WE GOOD, SO HOOD, THINK YA GONNA WANNA MAKE ME YO WIFEE.  CAUSE WE THIKKA DEN SOME SNIKKAZ, THIKKA DEN SOME SNIKKAZZ.
-K.BABY

ROCK NIKEZ AND J'Z.  BELIEVE DAT.  STARCH FLAT NO CREASES.  BELIEVE DAT.  GOT THAT WORK, WE THEM D-GURLZ.  BELIEVE DAT.  YOU H-O-T-GURLS.  BELIEVE DAT.  DO YA BENTLEY GOT THEM NIGGAS. BELIEVE DAT.  THATS THAT WEED SMELL IN OUR CLOTHEZ.  BELIEVE DAT. BET A HUNDRED, SHOOT A HUNDRED.  BELIEVE DAT.  ITS OUR BLOCK WE RUN IT.  BELIEVE DAT. GOT THEM 20'S ON OUR RIDE.  BELIEVE DAT.  GOT THA LEATHER INSIDE.  BELIEVE DAT.  FINE NIGGA LOOKIN FRESH.  BELIEVE DAT.  AND HE ACT RIGHT TOO.  BELIEVE DAT.  SLUGGED UP IN THA FRONT.  BELIEVE DAT.  GOT A TRUNK FULLA BUMP.  BELIEVE DAT.  GOT CRIBS, CARS, NIGGAS, AND CASH.  BELIEVE DAT.  CAUSE THATS WHAT WE LIVE.  BELIEVE DAT.  NOW I DO IT FOR ME, I DO IT FOR ME.  I DO CAUSE I WANNA PUSH THEM CADDYYZZ, I DO IT FOR MY DUDES, I DO IT FOR MY DUDES, ALL THA NIGGAS ON THA BLOCK THAT GOT THAT WORK TO MOVE.
-K. BABY

THEY TAUGHT ABOUT A LAW BUT I DONT SEE HOW.  PULL UP IN MY CAR AND THE BITCHES LIKE WOW.  AND WAS ME AN LUCI SHE ON 3 PILLZ, THAT HOE SAID SHE WANT ANOTHA 3 PILLZ.  BITCH YOU BEST CHILL CANT YOU SEE WE'Z FLOSS.  FEDS ALREADY ON US SO WE PAUSE FOR THA BOSS.  ALL THESE FEDS KEEP LOOKIN AT ME SLOWIN DOWN THA TRAP MAKE IT HARD FOR A G.  GOTTA NIGGA ON BANKHEAD NOTHIN BUT A DANK HEAD.  SLIDE THROUGH ON A LITE NIGHT WE AINT GIVIN NO HEAD.  IT WAS ME LIL G DONT FUCK HER I-O-U YOU KNOW WE RAN GAME ON HER.  MAC 11 THEM BITCHES JOCK.  RUN UP ON ME BITCH MEET THA GLOCKKK.
-K Baby

STAR TREK, STAR TREK, MRS KRAMER DONT WANNA GIVE A STAR BACK.  WE REALLY GEEKD UP THATS A STAR FACT, BLACK KIDZ AT CHARTER FROM BANKHEAD.  WE ROLL WIT GANGSTAS, PILL POPPAZ AND DANKHEADZ..I GOT FAMILY LIKE LUCI, KIJANA AND EDWYN, GOT PARTNER LYKE AARON AND GERALD.  WE FLY LIKE BLAZE WHEN WE BURNIN PURP, REAL C HEADS BE SHEETIN HURT.  GEEK MUZIK WE EARNIN TURF.  WHILE YOU FOOTBALLZ SOFT LYKE NERFFF.
-K Baby

MY GURL LUCI USED TO STAY ON 13TH LANE N DIXIE.  ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS, WE ALWAYS STAYED DOWN ON THA CORNER BY OSLO, SCHOOL FULLA STONES.  SHE NICKNAMED ME
K-ROCK SO THEY LEAVE ME ALONE.  INDIANS JACKET WIT HER HAT BROKE WAY OFF, AND WALKED AROUND THA MALL WITH HER RADIO FACE OFF.  PLAY SHE HAD THA SPINNER FROM HER COOP IN HAND, KEYZ IN HER HAND REASON AGAIN TO LET YOU KNOW IT WAS VERO SHE RAN.  BACK WHEN WE ROCKED NIKES AND HAD DREAMS OF CAPRICES.  DROVE BY THA TEACHERS..DECECTOR KEPT US FROM POLICES.  HOW SHE GOT THA CASH THE DAY HER HAMSTER PASSED AWAY, LEFT HUR WITH SOMETHIN.....14 SHE WAS ALREADY STUNTIN,'AL B SURE' NIGGA WITH HER HAIR ALL WAVY.  HIT THA FREEWAY GOT ATLEAST BOUT 80.
-K. Baby

NIGGAH I AINT GOTTA MONEY PRINTER, SO FOR THIS PAPER CHASE, IM OUT STOCKIN DINNERZ.  YES.  THE LAST 3 T.SQUAD MEMBERS, SHOUT OUT TAH THA FAKE PUNK SQUAD MEMBERS.  LUCI AND KRIZ STILL POINT GUARD AND CENTER.  SO MUCH MONEY ON OUR MINDS ITS ALL WE REMEMBER.  AND I JUST BOUUGHT SOME KICKS I'LL NEVER SURRENDER, AND THAT SHIT HOLD ME UP LIKE SUSPENDERS.  IM MIXED LIKE A BLENDER, MULTI THAN A BITCH, I GOT SO MANY HONEY DIPS THAT I CAN MAKE A LIST.  BITCHES WONDER WHY I STRESS. THAT I AM THA BEST, CAUSE EVEN DOPE BOIZ TELL ME YES.  HAH!.  I'LL PUT IT ON MY HOOD.  F-L-A TA DEAFF.  I'M ALREADY GOOD, IM WORKIN ON THA BEST.  A JUNGLE FULLA KICKZ, A CIRCUS ON MAI NEKK.  DONT FORGET MY MONEY HOE, I WONT FERGET THA REST.
-L Beezy

SEE BACK THEN IF YOU HAD A CAR, YOU WAS THE VERSION OF BABY, AND I WAS JUST A VIRGIN BABY, ONE OF THE REASONS I LOOK UP TO HER LIKE CRAZY.  USED TO LOVE TO PLAY HER DEMO TAPE WHEN THE SYSTEM CRANKED.  WE'LL TAKE A SATURDAY AND JUST CIRCLE THA MALL.  THEY HAD THEY LINCOLNS AND AND AURORAS WE WAS HURTIN EM ALL.  WITH THA NIGGAS A LOT OF FLIRTIN INVOLVED BUT DOG..FUCK ALL THAT FLIRTIN THEY WAS TRYNA GET IN HA DRAWERS.  SHE TOLD ME DONT RUSH TO GET GROWN, JUST DRIVE SLOW HOMIE.
-K. BABY

WE REAL BITCHES, SO OUR RIMZ SCRUB.  NO BLACK & MILDS WE GOT THEM BLUNTS FILLED UP.  WE GOT THAT PURP SWEETER THAN DEM SKITTLEZ.  FEELZ LIKE SEX JUST INHALE THAT SHIT.  PICTURE IT ALL BLACK DOWN TO THA WHEELZ BITCH.  BOUGHT IT FROM A DON GAVE HIZ ASS 2 TENZ.  KNOW US AS THA BOSS CAUSE WE SWERVE IN 2 LANES.  PICTURE LC N ME DOIN BIG THANGZ
-K Baby

LISTEN UP BITCH I GOT A IDEA.  I AIM THIS SHIT AT YOU AND YOU COME OFF IN THA PIES BITCH.  I AINT PLAYIN FOOL THIS AINT XBOX.  BUT WE COULD TAKE YOU TO THA MORGUE AND YOU CAN PICK OUT THA BEST BOX.  THE MOTOR SAYIN LUCI, THA CHEVY SCREAMIN KRIZ.  YO NIGGA VIBIN LUCI HE AINT GETTIN SHIIIH.  WE FROM FLA IT AINT NO SECRET NIGGA.  YOU'LL NEVA RIDE WIT USSS.
-K Baby

L BEEZY & K BABY ;; BEST FRIENDS//SISTURZ FRLYFE. 

ALL ABOUT THA BABY ;; DWAYNE CARTER

© Luci Nia Brajon & Kristen Evelyn McGill.
4LyFE.

ROBERT DILLON

Its weird not having you around.  I never really thought about what things would be like just knowing you dont live here.  You said you'd still talk to me and call me and stuff but its definitly not the same.  Yoo, I miss you.

I have no idea what I'm gonna do when you leave man. You're always gonna be my best friend. No matter what. Your the only person thats been 100% honest with me, even if telling me the truth upset me more than finding out you lied to me would have. And you never once sold me out of threw my name out there. You say stupid shit but its all good. You're party made me realize how good of a friend you really are. I'm like crying trying to write this. Whatever. Hahha. I'm gonna miss you so much. You're something like a little brother; I'll always have love for you, and I'll always be there for you. No matter what.


Your the only person that would put your phone in a plastic bag to talk to me while you take a shower.  Loll.
Kristen: Have you even gotten dressed yet?
Robert: No I'm jackin' off.
^^HE WAS KIDDING.




You already moved, but I dont wanna change what I wrote.
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